I haven’t been posting too much lately. In all honesty I have had a really rough week with my mental health. Those yucky feelings of being stuck and wanting so much that seems so unattainable. … More So Inconsequential.
If I try to explain my pain and torment to someone who has never been depressed or felt what anxiety or a panic attack is like or the drastic effects of the myriad of medications that my doctor is ‘testing’ on me. If this someone has never been buried so deep in the darkest hole covered with rocks – better yet, boulders – crushing down on you to a point where you are breathing, but barely surviving. This person will never understand your pain. They will never fully be able to get that you can’t just ‘get over it’ or ‘be positive and that will fix everything’. … More Day 1 of IOP: The Powerful Connection through Shared Pain.
Most days lately, I find myself under this heavy shroud and it just seems beyond impossible to get out from underneath it. No matter how hard I try. … More As I look up towards the sky, the raindrops mix with the tears I cry.