My Mental Health Journey

You make it hard to breathe.
I couldn’t live without this love.
A love so deep, I feel it in my bones.
It flows through my veins and
Nourishes my every being.
Pumps through my heart and
Keeps me breathing.
A glance, a touch, an ‘I love you’.
A flash flood.
It sends my head to the clouds
And my heart racing.
A woozy feeling.
Butterflies flutter.
A gasp for air.
A loss of reality.
This love is too much.
 
You make it hard to breathe.
I couldn’t live without this pain.
A pain so deep, I feel it in my bones.
It boils in my veins and
Devours my every being.
Pumps through my heart and
Swelters me overheating.
A word, a slap, a ‘fucking asshole’.
A devastating fire.
It sends my head to the ground
And my heart splitting.
A nauseated feeling.
Stomach-churning.
A gasp for air.
A touch of reality.
This pain is too much.
 
You make it hard to breathe.
I couldn’t live without you here.
Sometimes it’s malicious
Spiteful and vindictive.
A fiery passion that
Plucks and pulls.
A vulnerability that
Burns and corrodes.
An ache and pain
A tender devotion.
The only antidote to the agony inflicted
Is your warm touch, your glance, and an ‘I love you’.

So stay with me
Through thick and thin.
Through stormy weather
And rapid wildfires.
Because you keep me breathing
And my heart beating.

– Adeline Marie